Thursday, May 13, 2010

Psalms 23:4 and being scared

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil; For You
are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. - Psalms 23:4

This verse has always comforted me. I can remember being 5 or 6 and waking up in the middle of the night, scared to death because I had a bad dream. Of course I went to my mom and told her. She reminded me that I had just memorized this verse in AWANAs and told me that I should pray this verse to myself (if that makes any sense). If helped me fall right back asleep and I usually don't fall asleep very quickly after I get scared! Ever since then, this verse has stuck in my mind and whenever I am afraid, it pops right back into my head and I remember that God is always with me. Which is the most comforting thought in the world.
Tomorrow I am going to get an ultrasound because there is a lump on my breast. I am very scared. And I know the chances of it being cancer are very, very low, but Satan has a little voice in my head that keeps telling there is still a chance that it is cancer and it scares me to death. I had kept this to myself for awhile, because I am a private person. After I made the appointment, I told my mom and sister about it. And then last night, I told a friend (Amanda) who in turn told other girls in our community group. I was too afraid to actually tell them myself. Yesterday was hard, I was scared, worried, upset, etc. But after I told Amanda, I felt at peace. And then today, Psalms 23:4 came to mind. Just in time to comfort me and give me peace. I'm still scared, how can you not be when you don't know what it is? But I know God is there and will help me and Eli through this time, no matter what happens.


4 comments:

  1. Aw Sweetie, I am praying for you <3

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  2. Thank you for your honesty here, Courtney! You have such a beautiful and kind heart! I am praying for you.

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  3. Sweet Courtney,

    I am just now reading this so your appointment is over by now...but I hope and pray that it went well and that you have heard good news. Please let us know here.

    God bless you and bring you His peace which passes all understanding.

    Hugs,

    Gail

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  4. Courtney,

    I have been thinking about you and wondering how everything went...let us know how you're doing when you're able.

    Love, Grace

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